500 DAYS WITH BRIDGE

alright, this is sort of spontaneous so i hope i could say everything i had in mind earlier.

ups & downs, we've been through hell together. 500 days may sound short, but being in the situation we've been through, oh god, bet they wouldn't make it.

i would like to thank you for putting up with me for 500 days & 500 nights never changing and omnipresent. trials, we had a share of that every now and then, it wasn't easy, it was like being in fight of life & death.

thank you for sticking up with me despite my never ending rantings, demands, bawlings, ill-temperedness and loving me nonetheless.

i apologize if i sometimes make you feel taken for granted, i never intended that; inferior, i was just pointing out your flaws but it's merely constructive critisism; stupid, i just want to make it clear that you never were.

i also want to apologize for being impulsive, cocky, impatient, narrow-minded, prima donna, exaggerately paranoid and too self-absorbed. sometimes i tend to be inconsiderate, it always has to be about me. you know that i'm not really like that. it's just that i miss you much, and i can't be with you physically even if i wanted to...

keep in mind that i accept you for who you are. regardless of what you have and what you don't have. and that i love you with all of my heart and my soul. and that things keep bothering me, i cannot help it, but i am always rest assured that your faithfulness will never change; that i get mad because you tend to lose yourself in what you are doing and forget your needs and priorities; that i'm jealous only because i lost you once, i don't want to take the risk, i never want to lose you again...

i would never desert you, or hurt you in ways i wouldn't want to be hurt. i can never promise not to hurt you, but never intentionally. i will always respect you, treasure you, keep you, care for you and love you unconditionally. when the time comes that we're both too old to even kiss each other at night, i would still force myself despite the arthritis and all to kiss you goodnight, i would still make you feel loved. i will hug you tight when you feel cold, i would still let you put your legs on me while we sleep, kiss me when we wake up despite the morning breath and caress me just like what we are doing now... i want you to know that this is forever babe, not another case of shortlived relationships that we're used to.

you gave me a new reason to live. you are my bestfriend, my greatest listener, my helping hand, my caring shoulder, my security blanket, my knight in shining armor, my image of chivalry, my source of strength, my core reason for living, my eternal bliss, an inherent part of who i am, the definition of my very being.

we may have endured 500 fruitful days together, but can you do it for another 500 months or so? coz i can do it for another 500 lifetimes...

ILOVEYOUSOMUCHTOM.

usted es el único para mí y tengo la intención de guardarlo aquel camino. por favor, esté lo mío para siempre.

-BRiiiDGE IN L♥VE

sh!t!

suddenly i realized, i'm not made up of steel like superman, nor like iron like ironman. i'm in a messed up ocean of dilemma that keeps on flowing one after another that it piled up on me. i'm trapped in a hurricane of confusion and now, i can barely keep up. damn it! i thought i can cope up.

-confusedBRIDGE

make me feel dignified through this shithole :D

before you ever occurred, i vowed to myself, never again would i fall as hard like i did in my past relationships. i've been through hell again and again like a never ending cycle and i said to myself, stop, this has to be the last. i moved on and learned my lesson. you came and here i am, doing the same thing, but now with pride and conviction. i know every now and then i would get hurt. but you know what? i'm willing to go through all of it over and over and over again, just for you. :]
iloveyouT♥M
-BRIDGE♥

SUPERLOVE!

i met a man with the most hating eyes. scared at first so i never gave much attention to him. if there is more to this man, i told myself, i would never want to find out. for in his stride, a deep gushing hatred- to whom, i don't know, and i don't care... or so i thought...

weeks passed and this man with the strong fascade was revealing himself to me. coccooned in a hard shell was a butterfly yet to come out. intrigued, i got myself hooked. slowly, gently, i was in an unexplainable attachment. getting rid of the connection building up became really tough. like some sort of inevitable bridging of two hearts and meeting halfway. it's wasn't like those love-at-first-sight in movies. it was a development of feelings, gaining of trust, gradually being at ease with one another. there no princes and princesses like those in fairy tales. it was just me & him. unfancy as it may seem, but it brought the rainbow in my cloudy day.

it started out smooth sailing- floating freely in a still lake. no turbulence, no huge waves. just clear waters and serene ambience that envelops us with such peace that it everything seemed INVULNERABLE. little by little, the lake we've been sailing on became murky. Deceipt was hiding beyond the beauty of it all. a storm was building up. then it hit us... it hits us HARD.

the juggernaut that hit us made a crater in the smooth soil where we planted our dreams. it dried up our rows of roses of time, daisies of hopes, buds of our hardships and sunflowers of forever. all were gone. all were dead and withered.
one day, i decided to leave. i made a forkway in the straight path we were heading. i took my own course to a more blissful life. it wasn't an easy road to take, especially not by myself. but i made it halfway through. i was on my way to happiness. but something was missing. so i went back to the old road hoping to find what i have left behind that seemed inherent.

as i was walking back, i saw him in our garden of love. he was filling up the empty craters. i helped him sow the seeds and plant new ones. we planted rows and rows of sweet wishes and a heartful of aspirations. we watered each and every one together. i finally found what i have left behind. after the long and winding road to my sought after happiness, here i am, back to where i started. back to my eternal bliss- HIM.

time passed rapidly, going past us at the speed of light, but it was all right. don't matter much. for every minute was well spent and everything was worth the while. trials hit us in the face with such force that we almost gave up. all bruised up, we still decided that we'd make it through no matter what. hand in hand we faced the blows together. it hurts like hell but we were there for each other while the pain ceases. we were each other's foundations of strength, pillars of hope and he's my security blanket that hugs me through my insecurities. we are each other's bestfriend, lover and confidante. whatever god has in store for us, i hope we make it through side by side. it's not an easy battle, we know it. we'll strive for the peak. and once we reach the climax, nothing is above us, nothing is out of reach. let's make it mahal, all rigt? :]

iloveyouT♥M

-BRIDGE♥